questions

Is there a cause to depression? Can you blame something for causing depression? Can it be entirely due to environmental factors that triggered off the chemical inbalance in your neurochemistry? Is the chemical inbalance your fault? Do you need to be diagnosed by a professional to know what it is if you've always been acutely self-aware? Do you feel the need to validate the solution you've found? Do you think the problem has gone away after you've employed the solution? Can it be that it has completely disappeared, or will it creep up to haunt you during the dusky evenings, catching you vulnerable and unaware? Are you vulnerable and unaware? Can you be strong and aware all the damn time? Do you care about the answers to the above?

Do you feel alive? --Yes.

Caring For Your Introvert 101

"Do you know someone who needs hours alone every day? Who loves quiet conversations about feelings or ideas, and can give a dynamite presentation to a big audience, but seems awkward in groups and maladroit at small talk? Who has to be dragged to parties and then needs the rest of the day to recuperate? Who growls or scowls or grunts or winces when accosted with pleasantries by people who are just trying to be nice?"

Read this.

Might have cracked a rib laughing.

I can't really pick a favourite quote, but maybe because I've just finished season 1 of Dexter in three days, have this.

"Remember, someone you know, respect, and interact with every day is an introvert, and you are probably driving this person nuts. It pays to learn the warning signs."

But.

"We can only dream that someday, when our condition is more widely understood, when perhaps an Introverts' Rights movement has blossomed and borne fruit, it will not be impolite to say "I'm an introvert. You are a wonderful person and I like you. But now please shush.""
THIS.

damn that hurts good

My arms hurt from this working out thing. Guh. But I think I have my deltoids back! If I ever have children I'm going to toss them in the pool every weekend.

To Do:
-more emails (damn)
-laundry (the dryer better be functional or I am going to be very unhappy. I leave fantastic voicemails sometimes.)
-make packing list
-call delta
-clear out fridge
-arrange ride to airport

This was an article i skimmed while on my phone the other day. It's a bit heavy to read, but I was thinking about how genetically engineered crops would affect us in the long run. I'm not totally paranoid, but I think would make great fiction if humans were unable to process the modified food. Although, from a biochemistry viewpoint that's kind of hard, unless you really fuck up the biochemistry of the active site. But you could digest it, but still not absorb the altered nutrients. So if it did happen, everyone would eventually die off except a bunch of mutants who will be the Noah's Ark of the new world! Clearly I've also just read The Passage by Justin Cronin, and it was great. Couldn't put it down once I got past the middle of the book, nearly killed my eyes, but I think I missed a lot of the great language by skimming for plot. Not sure if I want to read the huge book again. Maybe I will. I'm sad that I never got to find out what happened to Fenning. Clearly the human race survived to document the near annihilation, but the ending was a huge tease.