a little more gritty, a little more real

just when I thought I'd run out of words for the night - this, this so much.

The importance of stupidity in scientific research

Biochemistry made me feel so stupid all the fucking time. I can almost say it helped destroy a lot of the self-confidence I barely had in senior year. I felt stupid. I felt stupid for feeling stupid. I didn't want to feel stupid but I knew I needed to do it even if it made me feel stupid. Here is where I thank the unknown powers that I didn't go through with the wild thought of switching majors two semesters from graduation. I feel that this article has put to words, brought to the forefront something I've always known subconsciously about science and research. I know I've told people the reasons why I'm not picking to do research, I want to do something more practical and productive in the industry side of biochemistry. But I think that even in the industry side, there will still be a reliance on research, and there will be no point in avoiding feeling stupid.

It could destroy me, or it could be my driving force.